Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Danea...paging Danea....

Danea...I lost your link when I switched to beta.
I've been missing your blog.
And my friend Rachelle, whom you have never met but who stalks your blog regularly, can't find you.....
Come back to us...

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Expectations and the failure to meet them.

"I'm normal!" I exclaimed the other day at work.
The receptionist looked up quizzically from her work and said "you say that like you are surprised"

Not surprised, just declaring....

I'm not an extravert, I'm not the life of the party (I know some of you find that surprising). I can remember being at a party with my (then) husband years ago, I found myself sitting on a couch having a quazi conversation with girls much younger than me whom I'm had never met before. At one point they both got up to go find their boyfriends, I looked around for a familiar face. I couldn't find one. Not even my husband.

I wasn't upset, just not impressed at being left in a room full of people I didn't know and didn't share an similiar intersts with.

It seemed the more I was expected to go out and have a good time, to mingle, to fend for myself...the more I pressure I felt and the more introverted I felt. I began shrinking into corners and reluctantly going out.

I have no problem sitting back and watching the happenings in a party, I'm pretty content to ease my way into meeting people. But to some unless you are dancing on the table it would appear you are not having fun.....

So in the last few years I have examined that phenomenon in my life, why the pressure to be extraverted makes me more intraverted, and I discovered.....I'm not alone.

I'm normal.

The more people I talk to the more I discover that I am not fundamently flawed (well at least not in this area....)

Friday, October 06, 2006

landslide


I remember in highschool doing a project for geography on landslides. Part of the project included pictures of the Hope slide. Pretty ugly. The highway was washed away, trees ripped out, a big scar carved across the hillside.

Today you would find the roads repaired and new plants growing. Perhaps if you didn't know about the slide you would never suspect there was one.

It's the same place, the landscape is just different now.... permanently changed. Changed that is, until the next slide

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

wait for it...

new posts coming soon.