living in the country isn't so bad....

Life is a train my friends.

Bearing down on you.

You can either turn and run as you see it coming in the distance, or you can grab a chair, crack open a beer (maybe not beer....) and wait for it to hit you.

~ eric foreman, that 70's show.

proud
grandma
moment...

Merry Christmas!

(what's up with this rain?)

Crazy day at work today.
There are six of us in the office, one is retiring tommorrow, one is going on maternity leave in March and the other...the one who knows the most about running the office is 7 months pregnant and has ended up in the hospital and will not be returning to work.
I was jumping in as much as I could, smiling and nodding at the doctors as they relayed information to me, trying not to look like it was all going straight over my head. Then as soon as they turned their backs I would run to one of the other girls and have them explain to me what the freak they were talking about.

We lost 2 patients today.
I don't mean lost as in they had a bad experience and won't be returning, I mean lost as in I turned around and they were gone. I was a little mistified myself. One wasn't my fault. The other...well..... I wasn't ready to take the blame, but apparently b/c I was holding the file, I was responsible (who knew?)
it was one screw up after another for all of us, real steller day at the eye clininc.

It could be worse, I could be working in the Christmas retail nightmare at London Drugs.

I hate when he's right....

I was looking through my inbox for an old email when I came across one from my (ex) husband. He sent it last January and in it encouraged me to take the road less travelled and go to Africa for a month or more. To do what I was called to do, take the opportunity before settling into the mundane business of life.
I'm not sure why I didn't. At the time I didn't want to lose the stability of my job. Looking back I wonder why I didn't travel after we sold the house. I could have gone for a month. I didn't have any financial commitments, I could have easily gotten my job back after.
I was to scared and unsure.
I have now settled into the mundane business of life, with a mortgage and a job. I love my house and think it was a great decision, but really....I had an opportunity and I didn't take it.
Now what?

is it worth it?

driving home today at 6:45, after picking up Andrew from Michelles, 10 hrs after I dropped him off, I wondered if this new job is worth it.
But really what are my options? I'm a single mom with a mortgage and car payments, if I don't work full time, we don't eat.
~sigh~
I realize moms do this all the time, but that doesn't make it any better. Michelle spends more time with Andrew than I do. Thank God for Michelle. But I wish it was me.
I'm thankful I have a job, and a home and a reliable car....but I sure miss my kid.

my mother loves me....

I took a sick day today. You know those days when your body feels like it's been hit by a truck?? I'm having one of those.

My mom brought me shortbread to make me feel better.

Maybe it's not so bad living around the corner from mom!

I took Andrew to Superstore today to buy groceries..I took a little sidetrip through the Christmas aisle.
I must have said something to the effect of "we better get out of here before we get into trouble..." because while looking at candles and debating whether or not I needed them, a small voice informed me we had better not get them because we will get into trouble.
I just had to inquire "in trouble with who?"
"Trouble because we won't have money"
I then got a lecture from my 5 yr old on how I really didn't need the candles and therefor I shouldn't buy them.

He left me a loophole though........
He stated at the end of his rant that they weren't on the list, leaving me to conclude that so long as I put frivilous things on the shopping list, I am free to buy them.
Makes sense to me.

cut my hair.
almost 8 inches...gone.
Feels so good!